Reverence of The Marks & Symbols of Ownership

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I spoke of Faith. Now…I’ll kneel to Reverence. Our first date. I stood calmly in His bedroom. Still. Waiting. A lioness’ instinctive understanding short-circuited my usual primal sexual aggression. I knew this man before I knew Him. Though desire and need raged through my veins, my lioness lowered her head in acquiescence to a Power she had known before time began and been searching for this entire lifetime. I waited. Utterly defenseless. To see how He would move. To see what He would want of me. To see which direction He would Lead us. He shifted behind me in the dim light. His first touch. A bold unmistakable Claim. With a deliberate slowness that seemed to last eternity, His fingers dug into my biceps as His teeth sank into my tender flesh where neck meets shoulder. My body gave into His strength. My mind let go of logic. My heart and soul gratefully surrendered to His Demand. I will always feel the echoes of the Marks He gave me in that moment. That was only the beginning. With ...
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Shameless

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~sigh~ I am shameless.

I typically don't let myself feel the true intensity. In the last year, I've done my best to avoid any kind of potential emotional roller coaster rides. However, the two glasses of wine at lunch yesterday and confessions between very old friends absolutely fuels this current embrace of my truth. Whether or not I let myself get caught up often in such strong emotions doesn't change reality.

I am shamelessly in love with that Man.

I've been in love before but never quite like this.  Never...so...easy...smooth.

I have no expectations beyond our occasional shared moments together.
I have no desire to have that which belongs to anyone else.
I have no misconception of some unrealistic grand happily ever after.
I have no drive to be to Him any more than what I am today.

I merely am in love with the Man He is. His outrageous strengths and optimism. His quirky flaws and human weaknesses. I celebrate our differences and learn from them. I appreciate our similarities and exploit them for our mutual pleasure and joy. I refuse illusions and see beyond what the world sees to accept, appreciate, and cherish Him for who His is. Nothing more. Nothing less.

I did not expect to be here. Not after what I went through.

I purposefully chose different strategies and different standards to avoid repeating any past mistakes. This time I accepted real time/life Dominance before any softer more vanilla emotions were even a consideration. He made it so easy to take the hand He offered and follow Him down this path that we're on.  Trusting Him was the easiest thing I've ever done. There's been bumps and detours of course, but the synchronized rhythm of us has never faltered.

And here I am.

No dizzy roller coaster ride.
No swell of overwhelming emotions.
No gut wrenching vulnerability.

Simply in love.

An easy relatively undemanding sort of in love.
Wrapped with my submission to please, give, and serve.
Reinforced with His firm and at times demanding hand.
Entwined with our shared darkness, mutual kindness, and a desire for us each to be the best and the most we can be.

I don't know what tomorrow or next month or next year will bring us, but I shamelessly embrace and cherish what we are and have today.

BTW to anyone who says we are doing our Owner/property M/s dynamic wrong for including love...fuck off.  No really...I mean that. ~hat tip~
~DominaKat

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