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The Edge of His Darkness

It’s 3am. I should be unconscious, earning another two or three face creases from sleeping soundly on His t-shirt, but in the shadows and silence and blessed fuckin stillness, I selfishly steal the time from my pile of obligations to travel back to our last night, our last morning, and just savor the memories.  Words, images, moments flicker through my mind.  Until I settle there.  That.  I hit replay and replay and replay. Fuck. What He did to me….   What I can’t even bring myself to fuckin type.  Even here. No one has dared.  Except Him.  Except Him.  Except Him. Looking back, I see clearly the presence I had felt.  It was there.  In the look carved on His face.  The edge of a Darkness that He holds tightly at bay had come to watch me.  Somehow... after so long... I had caught His interest again.   I met His gaze without fear, and His vicious response was absolute. There was no warning.   No preparing me to take what was to come.   He. Gave. Me. No. Choice.   And in the quiet deep o

A Moment of Reflections

So long ago...      Acceptance in the finality.      Seeds planted in fertile soil.     Hyper-compressed changes and maturity that forever altered what would be. I look back.  The girl that was somehow became the woman that is.  Nothing was planned nor expected, yet each phase flowed into the next with the ebb and flow of pain and joy and sorrow and lust and tears and love of life.   All those choices made to not remain the same.  Lessons learned.  Truths discovered.  Irretractable evolution wrought. So much and so little remain, and everything between then and now is impossible to capture—except in the prism of reality that is today. The moonlight filters through a million memories, sparking their vivid playback.  The pieces of a complicated puzzle that none have witnessed the full assembly have become unexplainable mysteries abandoned for the moment that is now.  In a life so full of twists and turns and here and theres, being known and unknown co-exist in the prism's reflections