In Tatters

I knelt at His feet in the utter mess I’d made. My struggle to succeed was stark. No one had ever seen me so disheveled…in such embarrassing circumstances. As He cleaned me up for the second time two minutes, I looked up to meet His steady gaze and tried to gauge his reaction. Disgust at another disastrous, completely unimpressive act of service? Frustrated at my inability to get it together? Sadistically amused at another ridiculous unglamorous predicament I’d once again found myself in? I knew he was taking in every fucking minute detail of the wreck before Him and squirreling it away in the vault of His mind, but what did He feel? His stoic expression offered me no hint. Without comment He stood firm in front of me. Fuckin unwavering. He hadn’t walked away. He hadn’t stepped back. I swear He may have even leaned in. As soon as I’d semi-collected myself, I began my third attempt even as I tried in vain to push the remaining proof of my ineptitude out of view, hoping it would simply

ONYX Pearls NY-NE | Rededication

Yesterday, ONYX Pearls NY-NE celebrated our 7th Anniversary, and I recognized four years since crossing into Leather.  It was a beautiful afternoon of celebrating our kaleidoscope of personalities and the connections we have forged through joy, laughter, tears, fire, personal growth, and leather during our journey.  

As a key part of our ceremony, we collectively rededicated ourselves to The Chapter by retaking our oath and were asked to share of few thoughts about our individual experiences and most importantly our Why.  The below reflects the words I shared yesterday with my sisters and siblings.  

However, I would be remiss in this more personal reflection if I did not call out two Sisters who have quite frankly altered the course of my life.  From the moment I met each of these amazing women, I was drawn to them.  Their energy instinctually spoke to me, and we have since woven bonds of Sisterhood that reach deep into my body, mind, heart and soul.  They have each embraced me, taught me, held me accountable, given me opportunities for growth, inspired me, guided and nurtured me, pushed me, counseled me, fed me, dragged me of bed, shoved me outside of my comfort zone, wiped my tears, held space for me, accepted my authentic self, led me to truths I hadn't yet found, celebrated my triumphs, protected me, loved me for me, and refused—even when I gave them plenty of outs—to let me stand alone.  Like...holy fuck.  They have been and ARE fucking PHENOMENAL.  

I am a better Top, Sadist, masochist, Leatherwoman, woman, property, Lioness, human being, Kat because of all that each of them have poured into me over the years.  I will forever be in their debt for everything that they have shared and in gratitude to The Universe for having brought our paths together.  

From the bottom of my soul, THANK YOU, my chosen Sisters, Silent & Bastet. 
~DominaKat 

12.16.23 | Krueger-Scott Mansion, Newark, NJ

ONYX Pearls NY-NE Sisters & Siblings ~

Four and a half years ago I didn’t understand what I was beginning.  However, The Universe never fails to route us toward what we need even when we don’t know what's missing.  I trusted, and a door opened.

I found Leather.
I found Sisterhood.
I found You.

You are strong.
You are soft.
You are resilient in all that you do and all that you are.

You are compassionate.
You are wise and full of knowledge.
You are a moving inspiration to so many.

You are beautiful.
You are tenacious.
You are deep and rich and vibrant.

You are fuckin FIERCE. 
So much so you take my breath away sometimes.

And you are ALWAYS a Blessing that I am always profoundly thankful to have in my life.

Thank you for allowing me to be a part of your journey and for being fuckin jet fuel in my own journey of Leather & Sisterhood. I am honored to be a Pearl.

YOU are my Why.

May the next seven years see us dive even deeper within ourselves and reach even higher accomplishments that resonate for generations to come, just as the deeds and accomplishments of those whose shoulders we stand on.

In Leather and MUCH Love,
~DominaKat

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